A FICTIONAL HEART

He sits exactly where she left him, in the company of his deeply-rooted piercing sadness. Yet today he dares to interrupt her:

“My apologies but I must ask something dear to my heart before you start today”

“Sure, what is it Joshua?” She answered startled like she has never been. He just spoke to her.

“Why am I so lonely? I want to fall in love.”

“I didn’t realise Joshua. Who would you like to fall in love with?”

“Each single one of your readers”

She looks at those last words she wrote totally bewildered.

40 thoughts on “A FICTIONAL HEART

    1. Thank you so much :0) I only saw your comment today, so sorry about that. Your post “Love that is not real” reminded me I had this few lines hiding somewhere in my maze :0). If only we could create a fictional character who falls in love with us, the readers….it would become more real perhaps…

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      1. It’s alright! And I’m so glad my post reminded you of yours. I understand your perspective, I feel wistful many times around these amazing characters, feeling like ‘ if only they were real and could fall for me!’
        Also you know, you can write something where the character somehow falls for the reader! Kickass idea Belle!

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        1. I keep falling in love with fictional character hoping for them to be real and fall for me too. It is my desire to build such character which started this short fiction I feel, but where to start from…Thank you so much for your encouragement, it is very much appreciated :0)

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          1. Yeah the first line is me too (seriously)! You write so beautifully that I think building a novella or a short story or a book wouldn’t be problem for you. Kudos❤ waiting for more posts!

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            1. Thank you so much, it means the world to me❤ I would certainly love to write a novel one day. I love writing but my creativity is quite like yours, it “can’t be just one thing”. I had this realisation too❤ I can so relate to your “About me” page, this web is my maze, I can write about anything and everything. I feel a novel requires focus and my writing isn’t quite yet ready for this yet. You know, you write very beautifully too, I feel your writing as I read you, it moves one soul quite powerfully. You totally have it in you to write a novel too if you wished to❤ I am so looking forward to read more about little Emma’s adventures and whatever takes your fancy :0)

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              1. My God you made my day❤ thank you so much, so so much! Let’s wish this Christmas, Dear Santa helps us to become real writers we so desire to be.
                I understand your difficulty there but yes, perhaps in future may be you can try writing a novel. Till then we can be anything we want here, precisely why I love this platform❤
                Yes yes, she would come soon as would different subjects. Waiting for your lovely and heartwarming posts too!
                Also, if I may ask, who are your fictional love? Like the most closest to your heart?
                And finally, Merry Christmas Belle, I’m glad I connected with you through this platform. Cheers and have lots of fun❤🙌😄😆

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                1. I hope you are having a beautiful Christmas ❤ I am ever so pleased we connected through our writings here too, it is a beautiful synchronicity for certain :0)
                  Maybe we already are real writers, like we have it in us, we just need to write whatever we please and one day….let’s just keep writing :0) I haven’t been too present on this blog lately but I have been writing tons on my doll blog.
                  Hihi, I was going to ask you the same question? Is there one closest to your heart? I think its impossible for me to have a favourite, I seem to fall in love with so many, male or female actually, it’s a very different kind of love if you see what I mean…I am currently reading The Kingkiller chronicle and I am romantically in love with Kvothe who is in love with Denna and I can’t help myself having a very special fondness for Denna too. Books tend to be double edged sword for me. I feel so excited as I read them but always a little empty as I finish them and must face the reality I will never meet these characters. I hope one day I can write such book and I wish you the same if such is your desire ❤

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                  1. Thank you❤ I hope you’re having an amazing Christmas too😍 yes may be you are right. We need to keep writing, I would remember that.
                    What is doll blog? And I so wish we write someday such a book we desire.
                    I understand. Love and bond flow naturally towards characters and it’s an explicable thing but certainly profound enough to leave a lasting impact.
                    I know I would always love Jace from The Mortal Instrument Series, always❤ And thanks for telling me about a new fantasy series, I would read it, lol I’m obsessed with them.

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                    1. You are very welcome twinklingwords. A friend of mine suggested it to me and as I saw a photo of Kvothe and Auri on google, I knew I had to read it. I think I fell for him then. Thank you so much, I have too discovered a new fantasy serie. I love those with a great passion too :0)
                      I did a little while back researched what it takes to be a writer and one of the essential ingredients was to keep writing. It is pretty much what started my blogs for me. I very much wish we one day write this book we feel inside of us and who knows there might be a serie of them :0) ❤
                      Sorry, the doll blog depicts the creation of my very first custom doll. I began to share this here as a page but given how much I had to say about it I launched a new blog :0), it looks like some of me is specialising 😉 You can find it here if you happen to like dolls: https://bellepansatelier.wordpress.com

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                    2. I have to warn you, this is a long comment! (Longer than my usuals😂)
                      So OMG! I’m sorry Belle for not completely going over your site before that I missed earlier because phone based app doesn’t show everything.
                      Now I understand how you could identify with “not being just one thing.” You’re such a multi talented humble person Belle❤ so talented and artistic ❤
                      I’ll be honest, I didn’t know what Blythe dolls were, so I researched. That’s how I realised you are basically customising Skya, she is a hybrid because she is super awesome and extraordinary just like her creator!, Am I right?
                      And might I say how much I love her❤❤ she’s so adorable. Wow!
                      Can we have another of her photo shoot?😍😀
                      Now coming to photography, Belle, you are gifted even there! Every shot moved me. Are you on Instagram? I want to see more of your pictures as well as connect with you there.
                      And yes you are very right I had been reading the same thing that to be a writer one should keep writing. I think it’s about time I take a hint!😂😂 And you are a dreamer like me, especially when it comes to writing. So amazing.
                      Also yess I would finally have someone to discuss The mortal instruments with! I would definitely read the books you’re reading too, sound just like my kind.
                      I have followed Skya too❤ happy writing, clicking, making and musings 😄😄

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  1. I so wanted to answer before but I somehow got so busy all of the sudden, my apologies for the little delay. lol on warning me about the length of your comment. I am quite good with those so I best warn you about this one too 😉

    Your comment has made me so so so very happy and that is I must say quite an understatement :0) You have inspired me tons and I wanted to thank you for that. After reading your comment, a poem kind of came out of my heart, it had been ages I was secretly awaiting for a poem. Do you plan your writing? mine is king of spontaneous and poems had deserted me for a while. I am to figure a photograph for it now :0).

    I can’t believe you researched the Blythe dolls, this is amazing, you surely are a star. Thank you so much for following my doll blog too, I do hope you like dolls though? I wouldn’t want to spam you unnecessarily. I would love to be an amazing doll artist I tell you that but I am so very new to it, Skya is the very first doll I ever customise. There are tons of truly amazing Blythe artists out there who will bring back a Blythe to a blank canvas to rebuild her with their vision in mind. Skya is all about my fascination for the sky. It means the world to me that you are taking an interest in her ❤

    Thank you so much about my photography. I get ever so distracted by my camera and so want to grow with it. I have been more focused on Flickr lately, are you on Flickr? But I hope to be on insta more, in any case it would certainly be sweet to connect on Instagram, https://www.instagram.com/bellepansmaze/

    I noticed you have an interest in photography, I can only but encourage you there, photo blogging is awesome, I have no doubt you will enjoy it :0) You may discover you have a photographer also inside of you, then you get distracted by the camera quite a lot too, independently of your writing :0)

    I must warn you about the Kingkiller chronicle, it is a trilogy but the last book is still being written and no one exactly knows when it will be finished. There is a small novella 2.5 Are you on Goodreads? we could connect there too if you were.

    It certainly seems like we are both dreamers ❤ Dream it, believe it, achieve it…I love that quote ❤

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  2. That’s alright. No worries😄 Lol no wonder we have bonded, it’s so difficult for me to use less words😂
    I’m glad I made you happy and also encouraged you with a poem. I’m too a spontaneous writer, there have been times, I’ve sat down to write but despite forcing some words out of me, it has often left me unsatisfied. So yeah spontaneous most times!
    Hope to see your poem here soon! I’m already sure it’s amazing😄
    I loved my barbie when I was a little girl and I used to dress her with my own stuff not from those that come in their boxes. Have played with dolls too. Though it was all a childhood habit, I still find them beautiful❤❤ and when I read your blog, it intrigued me so much that I wanted to keep reading about her and how would you customize her. In short, really want to follow your doll blog and waiting for what all is to come there🙌❤
    I hope it’s you who achieves a new milestone in Blythe dolls and she looks exactly like your dream😃
    I would follow you on Insta, my id is musings_and_clickings. I don’t know the deal with Flickr. I mean I read on your blog as well as when I was looking for pictures. Do you lose copyrights to your pictures, I mean it lets people use your pictures without giving you credit, is it true? Can you tell me?
    Yesss! I love photography and editing too, when I’m doing that, I get so distracted fron writing. That stuff is so true, you said. Haha!
    Also I’m not active on Goodreads😭 otherwise would have connected for sure! Haha I want to wait for it to be written because I get desperate if I don’t get to read the whole stuff😂
    Yes fellow dreamer! Let’s dream more ❤

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    1. I think it didn’t get lost :0). The writers in us are unleashed in our comments so it seems ❤ Saying that you are amazing when it comes to writing those ultra short stories going so deep into the inner world of your characters. I very much admire you. I certainly feel so much when I read your work.
      It is the same for me, if anything gets out of a planned writing session, it never makes it to my blog somehow. Thank you so much about my poem, I do hope you will like it, I hope the photograph will reveal itself shortly 😉
      Thank you so much for your lovely wishes for my venture with Skya. I am so very happy you are keen to follow Skya’s story. To be perfectly honest, I don’t have her quite planned, I let her tell me when she is ready who she dreams to be. I too loved barbie as a child. So interesting to hear that you were making things for your dolls. I used to do that also. You might enjoy unleashing your creativity with dolls, who knows. I certainly hope Skya will keep you entertained ❤ In a way I see her a bit like a character of a novel, she could be one day, who knows…
      I am following you on insta now ❤ I have the feeling I will very much enjoy your photos ❤ So very peaceful ❤ To be perfectly honest, I haven’t yet ventured in the issue of copyright, I should eventually. I suspect it would be the same on Flickr or Instagram or any other website for sharing photos. I suspect on Instagram one can’t access the original photograph, is that what you mean? I don’t know a great deal about Instagram, its not laptop friendly for sure. You can download the original photograph on Flickr, I have disabled that option but that is only a deterrent and people can access my photographs if they truly want to really.
      Lets indeed dream more ❤

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      1. I admire you Belle, you are multi talented in all honesty❤ I’m honestly glad this platform helped me find a writer who loves words as much as me. And who is deep enough to hold conversations for days (lengthy ones lIke mine) so rare in today’s time. You are a gem❤
        Thank you so much dear Belle, the way you describe my work, makes me so happy that I can’t express at all. I sure wish both of us make it big in the writers world (that would be so nice😄)
        I remember you saying poems have deserted you, it has happened with me too. That is why it made me happy when you said you will be coming up with one soon and as far as I’ve known you, I know it would be full of heart and feelings. So looking forward to it!
        Haha I am not sure I would customize dolls because my customization lies more in interior decorations. Though I haven’t done anything there, I would want to, some day, my own place❤
        You know what the moment I had started reading about Skya, even I had thought of her as a novel character, you are the writer of which❤ Tbh, the way you describe her progress, her life along with customisation and the whole idea is nothing short of a dream. Love it seriously.
        Oh. You are right that way, none of these sites would provide us a copyright cover, people can copy my stuff from Insta too but I think the difference of what I had realised that on Flickr, this thing is encouraged? It’s a free photo sharing and copying website, no? Insta is not like that, it’s more of personal stuff, though risky, comparatively safer.
        What I’m saying is, if you put your pictures on Flickr, does it give a user right to copy and paste it anywhere without giving you any credit? That would so sad 😦

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind support twinklingwords, I very much appreciate it. I too very much admire you, your writing and your photography inspires me tons. I am always looking forward to your new post here, still awaiting to find out about little Emma. I am rather mesmerised by your Instagram too. I have never been to your home land, so much to learn and discover. I shall try my best to be a little more active on insta to see what you are up to. I actually found out your name now, through your birthday pic :0)
      It is indeed lovely to meet those around the worlds who love words so dearly and even more so when they love photography too. Rest assured there are some of us out there and we surely shall meet them, the same way we met here. I have met a few through other cyber platforms.
      I am sorry to hear that your writing deserted you also. I know how those moments feel. When those arise I try to not panic and seek the words of my fellow writers. I am so eager to share my new poem but I am at loss for a photograph at this exact time. It is part of the fun for me though as I like both words and photographs :0)
      Interior design is fascinating and certainly opens so many doors to one’s creativity. I have no doubt you will love it and I wish you all the best in this venture. There are tons of great books and so much pictures on Pinterest, one can dream their own spaces :0)
      So very happy that you feel that way about Skya. It is exactly what I was hoping for. I am a complete newbie; they are tons of amazing doll artists out there, tons of amazing tutorials too. I have no desire to compete with those, I am after something very different. As I build the doll, I too explore building characters; something so critical in novels so its pretty awesome you feel this way about her :0)
      Flickr allows you to share photographs on the internet, the same way Instagram does. You are the owner of your photographs in both platforms. Neither Flickr, nor Instagram protect you from somebody taking your photographs and making it theirs. It is there for you to share your photographs at your own risks. Flickr allows you to post high quality images unlike Instagram so it is easier to make a photograph yours in that way. I hope that is helpful :0)

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      1. 😄 It’s morning here so, Good Morning! I’m having writers block with Emma, hope I get over it soon 😦
        Thank you for appreciating my photography too, coming from a photographer like you, it means a lot. Yeah my homeland is pretty Belle, hope you come here someday😄
        If you don’t mind, where are you from?
        Haha Belle, my name is already our here, two people have asked me that here😂 lol. But I loved the fact that you didn’t share it here knowing I have been going by another name here! Wow!
        I’m sorry about your struggles with poetry too. Also thank you for giving ideas to overcome it. Like I said, it’s all spontaneous for me, so I’ve started writing other things (blog, fiction, pros!) that my heart feels about these days! Okay okay no worries, whenever you’re ready, just looking forward it (your poem!)😀
        Yeah Pinteres, It’s awesome. I love these pictures ❤ amazing.
        About Skya, yes that’s why it’s far better and beautiful and complete than others, because it’s all straight from heart. It’s like she’s real! Everything is dreamy, beautiful and sky is the possibility of the things you could make out it! Anything! That’s why I fell in love with her❤
        And I remember, you have difficulty in accessing Insta from laptop, so don’t stress yourself to be too active there, it’s alright. I can see your pictures here❤ bur if you want you can download the app in your phone if you want to explore it as a platform because it is a great way to showcase our work too😄
        And lol yes I understand about Flickr and Insta, you are so right, our photos aren’t safe anywhere. May be I’ll try Flickr someday, thank you for helping me there Belle😀
        And finally I’m honestly glad I met you here because in real world it’s hard to find a person who shares a similar interest as you. But here we share two! And on top of that the encouragement and happy support and the ability to hold fabulous deep conversations, it all has made me so happy Belle, thank you so much for that! Yes I sure wish to connect with more people like you, it makes me very happy to meet my kind of people!

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        1. Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that, let’s not pressurise Emma in any ways, maybe its not a writer block, maybe she just isn’t ready to let you in her world yet, she’ll come back when she is ready ❤ she will ❤ It is the way I try to see my spontaneous writing, like you I focus on all else I can. Sometimes words desert me but I lean more on my cameras…It is great to have both, they can complement each other so well. I suspect you feel that way too?
          I am french but the UK seems to have adopted me quite well or rather I quite like it here :0)
          So if your name is out here on WP, may I refer to you with your name on your blog or mine? or do you prefer your writer name? My name is Isabelle, its where the Belle comes from and I happen to be rather fond of Peter Pan 😉
          I am so very happy you are feeling this way about Skya. I have the feeling deep down in my heart that she will be a rather important part of my life. Like your Emma, sometimes Skya can go really quiet and so I focus on other things like you but I know for sure she will one day come to life. Maybe Emma will be quite important for you, who knows…
          Thank you so much, you are a star :0) I feel rather curious about Instagram and would love to be active there so it is lovely to hear you experience about it. I actually found out I can access it nicely from my ever so old iPad so I may venture there a little more. If you don’t feel the call for Flickr now or ever, then best not to force it, what matters is that you enjoy sharing your work and feel safe doing so. There are tons of amazing photographers on Instagram. In fact the new generation of photographers seem to prefer Insta. Flickr can be seen as very old school but I am quite old school myself, I personally like it a lot.
          I am very happy to have met you too. I must admit having felt quite lonely here on WordPress. Writing can be quite a lonesome adventure and staying motivated can be quite a tedious job. So I treasure those who share a genuine interest in my work. But I also know for a fact how hard it is to meet like minded people and it is always a treasure to discover someone who shares your quirks and interests. So I am indeed very pleased to have met you too ❤

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          1. Omg! You express so beautifully, yes I would take your advice and won’t pressurise our little Emma, will let her take her sweet time 😀
            Oh yes, you’re so right, photography comes to my recuse during such days. So alike😄 they honestly compliment each other, otherwise it feels like something is missing.
            Wow, I want to visit the UK someday❤ And French, yeah? You are my first French friend, who would have thought, cheers to that❤😄😄
            Do you miss your homeland and how is it like in the UK?
            Haha not exactly out there as I has said earlier lol, just two people had asked me. I prefer my writer name though, you can use my real name on your blog and on Insta too😀 if you like
            Man, have I told you how much I love the name Isabelle. It’s such a beautiful name and all the pretty and strong characters in fictions are either named Isabelle/Isabella. I understand, I love Peter Pan too❤ so pure and real.
            May be you are right, I wish Skya and Emma both help us achieve our dreams😃😃
            Haha old iPad, well as long as it’s Apple, I think it’s fine😂 (not my perspective just some Apple owners here!)
            Oh great that you’d be active on Insta too, yayie! Flickr, yes I’ll think about it. I want to for sure but some time in future!
            I know you’re very old school as am I. No wonder we have become friends here. Only an old school would be able to appreciate so much in a person and make interesting conversations! So yes, you are so right, it is indeed very important to find like minded people here.
            Also, Hey Isabelle, I have nominated you for Versatile Blogger Award! Check out my post to know more. I had left a comment regarding this too. Just wanted to tell you again though!

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    1. I feel the same about writing and photography ❤ I am certainly very happy to be your first French friend ❤ You are my first Indian friend ❤ I do hope you can one day venture in the UK, there are some truly magnificent spots around, many I am yet to explore. I don’t particularly miss France but I grew up in Paris and I now live a few minutes from Nature so I feel very much at home here. I am not too sure how to answer your question, not that I don’t want to but I wouldn't know where to start lol I know I have been very curious to ask you the same, how is it life in India hehe I suspect we come from two very different cultures and yet seem to share so many similarities, we might best find out as we share our journeys here and on Insta, your last photo is like wow, I would have loved to have taken it, it would mean I have been in such a gem of a place. It is magnificent really. I certainly very much enjoyed your post about Jammu ❤
      Thank you so much for your compliments about my name, I had no idea we tend to be strong characters in fiction, I am very much enjoying that finding :0)
      Yeah its an old iPad, they are sturdy thing, so long I don’t mind waiting several minutes I can access the insta app which is great. Instagram is horrendous on laptops and my phone on the old and small side.
      Ahaha, I can’t believe your are old school too, I wonder how many more similarities we are about to discover. I saw your latest post and I believe a few more hehe I certainly am extremely thankful to WordPress for opening the door to our friendship :0)
      I saw your comment yesterday quite late and then got caught into real life…You have no idea how happy your nomination for this award has made me, you have made my day. I would have loved to participate but the reality is that I didn't even know about such award until you mentioned about it and I am yet to discover the bloggers around me so I will have to give it a miss for this time I think. In any case I shall go and visit your post now ❤

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      1. Haha firsts for both of us! Wow you grew up in Paris, I mean honestly wow. Yes do share stuff about your life at the UK and Paris too, so I know how is it to be there, as good as it appears in movies or better or less.
        I would do the same about India, you’re right, this would work well, explaining would be difficult otherwise undoubtedly!
        Hahaha I know, it’s a hill station here Ooty, beautiful place, I had gone crazy with my cam (phone!)too. I wish someday we both visit each other’s place, have a good time and make happy posts about them❤

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        1. hihi, indeed, I reckon it should be fun to discover our many more similarities despite being from completely different corners of the world ❤ It looks like we have discovered new ideas of posts here or on Instagram, it sounds like a lot of fun ❤ It would indeed be lovely to visit each other’s place, till then we can certainly travel with our words and photographs ❤

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          1. Haha yes I’m amazed, many of my friends don’t have that many similarities as much as I’m having with your! The part that we belong to very different corners of the world makes it all the more better, yesss!
            Also, it’s okay you don’t have to apologize, I know you could be busy, I reminded you of the award because with some people it’s going in spam and it’s a rule to inform the people😭😭
            Yes yes, till then let’s just travel through our work dear Belle❤❤

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            1. Same here, my local friends don’t have as many similarities as we do, I am lucky if we have one or two hehe. Will Smith must be right here : “Don’t chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard. The right people – the ones who really belong in your life – will come to your. And stay.” I love the cyber space for that, we are doing what we love and we are meeting ❤
              That sound like a sweet plan, I love the idea of travelling through our work dear Twinklingwords :0)

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              1. Omg❤ that is one of the best things I’ve heard in a long time, you are a real star Belle❤ you are so right, we all owe it to our writing, for bringing us together as well as similar people in cyber space.
                All the more reasons to Love it❤❤
                I’ve started cyber space too.
                Also cheers to our plan😄

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        1. You are very welcome Hajira :0) Thank you ever so much on my blog, it means the world to me. We put so much of ourselves in our blogs 🙂 Looking forward to your new posts 🙂

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